Drake had a doc appt downtown and on the way there, as we were passing the cemetary, Drake yelled out "Maddie!" So on the way back from the appt, since we were already on the exit of the cemetary, I decided to stop by with Drake. We haven't been since the summer so it was good to go. I knew we wouldn't stay to long since Lydia was asleep and Drake is in the process of potty training and I didn't want an accident! So we got out of the car and Drake ran over to Maddie and immediately kissed her picture. After a minute of staying by Maddie he ran around for a little bit going over to different headstones and smelling other people's flowers and after a bit I told him it was time to go as I was walking over to check on Lydia in the car, which was real close just on the street where I took this picture. I looked back to Drake when I got to the car and saw him like this, laying on her headstone. Tears immediately flooded my eyes and I just watched him for a long 2 minutes just laying on her. A million thoughts went through my head of how he totally knows her and if she were here how they would be best buddies and how sad I am that she isn't, but then I looked at his face and he was so happy. He is happy, Maddie is happy and that made me happy to know that on such a small level, or huge...a level that that I am not even on, that he gets it. It was a very tender experience, a cry I wasn't expecting but so grateful for. Drake knows Maddie, not just from the pictures we have of her around the house, but I do believe that he truly knows his big sister.

Then when we I finally got to Drake in the car, I realized he had peed his pants. Uh. Let's just say the waterworks were quickly dried up!! :)
















