Update of the Walburgers

I know I haven't posted in a while and I have really been trying to think of stuff to blog about, but it's all just everyday life. We are just in coast mode right now it seems like but still keeping very busy. Jordan works a later shift right now so we are enjoying having him home in the mornings. Me especially because that means I am able to go to the gym in the mornings since Drake isn't old enough yet for the childcare. After not going to the gym for over 3 years has been really refreshing. I got really burnt out at the gym while living in Utah and had no desire but now I am loving it. It has been a great release for me. (By the way go to Costco and get a 2 yr. membership to 24 hour for $299 which equals out to $12.50 a month, what a steal!) So other than the gym, I am taking piano lessons once a week that I have also been thoroughly enjoying, and being primary president is a given to keep me busy! Jordan has completed 30 days so far of P90X, which if any of you know how grueling that is, is pretty impressive! Him and our good friend Ryan have been doing it in my front room EVERYDAY, besides Sunday. I have already told them they owe me new carpet!!! Their results have been awesome though. If you are very dedicated, you should try it!

Drake is our life right now and we are just enjoying him to pieces. I feel like I am the same Mom as I was to Maddie except for being way more precautious which I really don't like about myself and do it almost subconsciously. I was never a worried Mom with Maddie and now with Drake I am constantly checking on him while he is sleeping multiple times, I have to have my door wide open during the night so I can hear him if anything is wrong, I am constantly checking him in the rear view mirror while driving, and my prayers are never ending that he will be with us so I can see him grow up. I know it's good to be precautions but I don't like thinking of the reason why I am now.

As it nears closer and closer to July 27th I am reminded of what we were doing with Maddie a year ago. She had just stayed a week with my parents while we went on Jordan's business trip to Cancun. We would be starting swim lessons in the next week and going out on the boat with Paul, Alyse, Tate, and Taylor and having a great 4th of July. These memories just remind me of the day that nears closer and closer to her passing. It makes me physically sick and sad, because I miss her so much, but also happy that we do have those wonderful memories.

So right now we are coasting, doing well, going through our everyday life, but I would say have a lot on our minds as we reflect on the past year. Bittersweet, as we welcomed our sweet little Drake and said good bye to our sweet Maddie. But goodbye isn't a good word, because she is ours forever and that is still what puts a smile on my face. My grip on my testimony of the plan of salvation and the power of the atonement has not slipped an inch. I am because of Him. My family is because of Him. And I couldn't ask for anything more.